Monday, February 23, 2009

written thought





this is a poem i started writing today in medical because, as usual, i became bored. oh and no i did not copy your story peistrup, i mean sure it just happens to have the same theme, but that's purely coincidence. i mean a lot of stories are centralized around car crashes...
any ways...
p.s. the french saying means "all i see is you"
p.p.s after reading this read the entry from february 5th on this blog http://www.thehorrorstories.blogspot.com/ please please please


HIS MEMORY
This is a memory
So open your mind
Let's pull out a scalpal
It'll be simply divine
Let's extract each thought .
One by one
We refuse to stop
Until we are done
Remember that smirk?
Or that time you cried?
Remember the madness?
Or that tear in her eye?
Remember when she first said
"I love you."
Or in French class, when she proclaimed
"Je ne vois que vous!"
Remember your excitement when she said
"I do."
Your love for her
Her love for you
Brilliant
Wonderful
And shiney new
Her skin against yours
And her heart beating true
Can you still imagine her through those open doors?
Or your first thought of the pretty girl with eyes glued to the floor
More present past
Your memories of her laying in your arms
Her laugh, her smile, a relationship to last
Or did you forget of a time not long past
Do you not remember the curves in the road?
The rain pouring too fast?
And now you carry a heavy load
Memories filling eyes with tears
Can you not remember that sleeping angel, passenger seat beside you?
The one you loved all those years?
The sleep upon you so sudden, so fast
The trees shattering hearts of a love meant to last
It's over now
This memory is done
No more smiles
No more fun
Sit alone
Her dead, right there
Sit alone
Without love
Without care












Monday, February 2, 2009

Pectus Proditio







the title is latin which means Heart's Betrayal.


Hence there was a time when a peasant girl once lived alone on a cliff on the ocean. Her name was Cavea. She had brilliant bright, strawberry red hair with stunning eyes of the lightest brown shade and, light dotted freckles around her nose and cheeks. She also had a slender build, and was muscled but, only ever so slightly from all her work around the house. Her lips were the shade of a freshly plucked pink rose and her tone was a pure as freshly fallen snow, which was shocking against the pallor of her stunning hair. She had been alone since she was eight years old when her parents and sister disappeared without note or trace. It had been eleven years since then but, still she never dwelled to long on it. She had three friends to keep her company named Tre, Dirse, and Monolse, who were swallows. One day as she was chirping with her three friends on the shore when she glimpsed something at the corner of her eye that looked like a something drowning about a mile off shore. Her instincts took over and she dove straight into the water and raced out to it. When she reached it finally, she was shocked to discover two things. One was that the thing was defiantly not drowning, for it had fins, two infact! Two, it was not a thing but some sort of creature that was certainly not human. The strange creature had a head and body belonging to wild, white mustang and, instead of the tail and back legs of a mustang it had the two sea green tails of a siren, strongly muscled and looking awfully powerful. Cavea gasped at the immense sight and nearly drowned herself in exasperation but, the creature swung one of its tails around and supported her. It then looked at her and bellowed, “I am the official Captain of Guard of Poseidon’s. My name is Capricorn and, I have been sent to surface to find the fortune teller’s foretell.” The pronounced Capricorn then turned to a quite baffled Cavea and stated,” And, my fair maiden, are you? You seem awfully lost.” Cavea stared at him for a moment and just as Capricorn was about to repeat himself she said,” Sir, I am um...Cavea, a simple peasant who lives just there”, she points to her home,” on that cliff.” Not even wait to finish her sentence Tre, Monolse, and Dirse came swooping in ready to go in at full attack at Capricorn. Cavea saw them coming in at the last moment and acted quick by splashing a wall of water up and that diverted the three bird’s attack. Tre came around fast and dived into attack again straight at Capricorn, but Capricorn was no fool and learned quickly so, as Tre came in Capricorn splashed water right at him with his snout. Tre curved up at the last minute and swerved high into the air to where Monolse and Dirse were waiting. They all started to chirp and flutter in frustration and the interceptions to their attack, confused on how and why their Cavea was protecting this beast, this monster. Cavea turned towards them, giving them a horrid scowl, bringing a faint rose colour to her cheeks and deepening the usually delicate shade of her lips. She then turned towards an awfully amused Capricorn, softening her hard expression. Then Capricorn, who was obviously still bemused, started laughing a deep and earth-trembling laugh. His laughter seemed to shake the water around him and roll off the waves. This made the swallows even bitterer at this odd creature before them and, it made Cavea blush a deep crimson. Tre, Dirse, and Monolse all fluttered off in a huff towards shore and Capricorn followed still carefully balancing Cavea on his muscled tail. As, they came close to shore Cavea got off of his tail and started to swim the rest of the short way when she realized half way in that Capricorn had stopped. She looked back and saw him there, just stalling, biding his time. Their eyes caught and she smiled and then beckoned him forward as she reached shore and slowly walked out of the water. Capricorn then started to slowly ease forward, getting closer and closer towards the shore. The closer he got the more he had to drag his enormous tail, soon he reached the first part of shore and that’s when he began to change. His two tails of a siren started shifting and shortening becoming thinner and started to grow fur, they slowly faded from a sea green to a snow white, and then he was no longer dragging them but walking upon them. He also grew a beautiful long tail that wired about with the ocean breeze. His horse head began to extend and morph, taking on a new shape, and becoming barer and barer. He sprouted the upper extremities of a human and then a human head his skin turning to the fleshy pink colour that is human flesh. His beautiful, long main shortened to the top of his head, only leaving a thin white line to show where it used to be. His hair now shone as a brilliant white blond, his eyes glistened as bright as a clear summer’s day, his muscles rippled around his body like an intricately wrapped ribbon. Cavea stared, shocked and amazed, unsure of what to do, but she couldn’t take her eyes away from him. Capricorn galloped up along side of her and with one swift movement he swooped her up onto his back and he rode down the beach towards the village. The three swallows who had been watching this entire scenario quickly followed after the galloping two as they headed into town. Cavea and Capricorn spent their time together sharing their stories, and comparing adventures with each other. During that time Cavea found out the true reason as of why Capricorn was here. Approximately 338 years ago an old dying fortune teller foretold that a human mortal from the surface would arise around this time and that this human would once again tie the bonds between Earth and Sea. At first, Cavea thought this was silly until she learned that the ties haven’t been renowned for nearly three millennia, and that last human mortal fell in love with Poseidon and was reining queen for nearly two and a half million years and then she died tragically and when the fortune teller foretold this last prophecy everyone expects it to be the next queen of the Seas. By day Cavea went out searching, with her three friends in tow, for this mysterious sea-loving mortal, but found none. By night though, Cavea found herself entranced by all of the stories Capricorn could tell of his three thousand immortal years. At the other end of this rainbow though, sat a growing storm cloud, three in fact. Dirse, Monolse, and Tre were becoming heart-ridden, jealous, and bitter. They felt as if that thing of a creature, Capricorn, should be dumped back into the sea where he belongs and to never come up again so that he would leave Cavea alone. All three swallows loved Cavea dearly, although she never expected in the slightest. Often, late at night they would, amongst themselves, devise devious plans to get ride of Capricorn, and how the three of them would go to the witch of Ezula, three villages and a river away, and have her turn them into handsome mortal men and how they would all court the lovely Cavea. In their own minds though, hidden away from the others, they did not want to share their Cavea but, instead to keep her for themselves and how the individually planned to kill the other two. By the third week of searching Cavea was exhausted and she wished to do it no more. She often said,” Your mortal, she is gone, or dead but, surely not here.” Capricorn felt her emptiness and often held sympathy for her and all he could do was hold her and tell her all he knew to ease her mind and her worries. The third day after the third week of searching, Capricorn stopped Cavea before she went out again and questioned her,” Cavea,” he pronounced her name as if it was the sweetest love poem his ears had tasted,” dear little birdcage,” he called her this because in Latin Cavea means birdcage,” why, do you choose to live by the sea, every land dweller we have come across respect and visit the sea but, none dare ever stay so, why do you darling Cavea, why?” Her cheeks flushed with colour and she turned to gaze into his clear blue eyes and sighed as she stroked his face and said,” Oh Capricorn, do you not see? I love the sea. Born of land and sun and moon am I but my heart remains with the sea.” “I sometimes feel,” she added,” as if I was made for the sea but was placed in the wrong body at birth.” Capricorn felt his heart skip a beat. A huge smile broke across his face before he even realized it and he was trotting with excitement. Cavea giggled as she watched his little turn about both curious and oddly amused at this sudden act. “Oh Cavea”, he cried out, “You are what we have been searching for; you have the ability to tie the bonds of Earth and Sea.” He then sat down with such swiftness and grace that Cavea, at first, thought he had collapsed. As she knelt beside him, she was confused by his expression. It was crossed between pain, joy, and confusion, which the latter well matched her own. He pulled her close and explained as he confided in her,” Cavea, I am so lost. I do not understand, I mean I do, I know for sure you are her but, I am in love with you Cavea. That is right were I become lost,” he stands,” I thought you were supposed to be Poseidon’s not mine. I mean, what am I dear darling? I am nothing but a guard. It is not right for the happy ending to be mine, I cannot be apart of this great tapestry of fate, I am a pawn to small for the board.” He started pacing when Cavea raised herself up to him and took his hands in hers. She reached on her tip toes and gracefully kissed him. Her soft, pink lips touched to his stained blue. She kissed him gently and he was quiet with shock, and then he embraced her closer, holding her tightly pressed to him, afraid that she would disappear the moment he let her go. He set her down, still holding her in a light embrace, her fingers tracing his throat. She gazed up at him with a dreamy look in her eye and she stated simply,” You’re wrong you know.” His eyes questioned her. “Yes, I do agree that I am the human mortal but, you are not nothing. Just a guard? Preposterous. You are the Captain of the Guards of Poseidon. You alone are in charge of the safety of one of the most important gods. You are no small pawn, my love. No. You are the brave and shining knight, ready for battle at the drop of a flag, braver than any other alive. The game would be lost without you. I would be lost without you. I love you Capricorn.” His face enlightened with sudden understanding, a huge smile of triumph across his face. The two lovers wrapped each other into another even more passionate embrace, afraid to let go and face the uncertain future ahead. Dirse just happened to witness the entire scene, play-by-play. He nearly fell off his perch; his anger and jealousy were boiling hot inside him. He soared over to Monolse and Tre and told them in detail what had just occurred. When Dirse was finished the blood was hot in each of the swallows as they flew toward Ezula at racing speed. Cavea stretched her arms out wide and felt the wind whip her brilliant blue dress fold back against herself, feeling the soft silk brush against her skin. Her hair was whipping about behind her, seemingly of their own accord in a gathering of graceful movements, which made it seem like a dance against the wind as she rode on the back of her galloping centaur. He jumped over bridges and rocks and rotting trees and Cavea laughed, throwing her head back and feeling the sunshine soak into her skin as she let all her worries and cares slip away. They were on their way back to the Sea to descend, to announce. Just as they were about to reach shore three immense figures swooped in front of them, obscuring their way. Cavea was angered at first at the thought of this mere obstacle blocking her from the safety and happiness of the Sea. That is until she recognized the wing colours, browns, greens, purples, oranges, and blues. Her shock and frustration mingled all onto one. “Tre, Dirse, Monolse,”she stated defiantly,” get out of our way.” Monolse was the first to step up, as he did this he cackled aloud, echoing off the trees behind them. “Cavea, doll”, he cooed. Tre stepped up,” Step away from the evil beast Cavea and come with...” “Us”, Dirse finished for him. Cavea cocked her head to the side and even though she tried her hardest to resist, her body went forward. One step after another, she was slowly coming closer. She could not understand, what was her body doing? Why was it not listening to her? Through tear touched eyes she looked towards the changed swallows, they were men. Full bodied, strictly muscled, great coloured swallow wings, scorned face, and even though she could not see it through the flesh, she felt it. Their hearts were scorched, by love, but burnt to crisps but the dark magic. Then she spotted it, Tre. He was holding a diamond on a chain circling it above his right palm, this, this was what was controlling her, she knew she had to stop them but, how? Capricorn stared dazed and confused at the advancing Cavea. Had that one simple sentence they nearly spat out completely changed her heart completely? Watching his love close the distance between him and these monsters, he questioned if what she had said was really true. Did she really love him or was she lying and she is actually the same, as those monsters. He could not decide, his heart lay like a stone in his chest, heavy and hardening. Just when he thought he was about to collapse from his heart sinking him down into endless heartache, he saw her strawberry hair flicker and his head immediately snapped up like instinct. Look at him, that’s what she had to do. She tested it she could move her head freely. She turned her head sharply, just as she was about to reach the three whom she no longer recognized as her old friends, making sure her hair would flip outward to catch his eye. As soon as he looked up their eyes met and Cavea let the tears roll, hot down her cheeks. His eyes widened in horror and she muttered all the voice she could control and very softly said, “help.” Her voice was small and she was afraid it wouldn’t reach him. When the tears fell from her soft eyes to her delicate cheeks, Capricorn felt the tears land on his heart melting the stone away. To see such an angel as she in pain and tearing made his whole body shake in horror that these creatures would hurt an angel in such a way that his blood rise high and boiled red hot. And when his perfect angel pleaded to him for help, it was quiet and yet her words hit him like a hot wave and he lost all control. He charged before he knew what he was doing and ran right on top of Monolse’s wings smashing the bones to bits. The bird man cried out in shrieking pain thrusting his legs about, not even daring to twitch his arms. Capricorn seemed to be seeing red like a pulsation through his vision. Tre and Dirse set to flight but not before Capricorn caught them both by a leg and threw them to the ground. Tre’s diamond was thrown out of his hand when he hit ground breaking the spell on Cavea. Her legs gave out at first from loss of control and numbness. She quickly dragged herself out of the way of the heated fight and partially watched in horror as she looked for something to throw. Capricorn and Dirse were brawling on the ground as Tre was looking for the diamond. Dirse then yelled out to Tre,” The diamond, get the diamond you mongrel!”Tre spotted it at the same time Cavea did. They caught each others eye for less than a moment then Tre was up and racing for it. As he about to grab it Cavea had found a pine cone and threw it as hard as she could straight for his head, it hit him with brute force right above the ear, sending him stumbling to the side. In that time Cavea gathered all her strength and rushed for the diamond, just as she was about to snatch it Tre grasped the chain and yanked it out of her grip. Her head snapped up and with bared teeth she tackled him to the ground and slammed his head against the ground at the same time she bit the skin right above the jugular and as hard as she could she tore straight up ripping apart his flesh and exposing his veins and blood, she bit again tearing the hole wider in his throat. He tried to let out a scream but choked on his own blood and the only noise he made was a gargled choking. Cavea grabbed the diamond and chain and stuck it down her brazier where it could be kept safe and out of sight. She rushed over to where Capricorn had pinned Dirse with his front hooves and was pressing down. Cavea sat on Monolse’s wings hearing him yelp in pain, she gave him no second thought. She watched as Capricorn stamped on Dirse’s chest, hearing his ribs crack under the pressure, she watched as he struggled for breathe and then as Capricorn gave the final push she watched his lungs collapse, his breathe give out, and his eyes roll to the back of his head. She turned to Monolse who was whimpering in pain and she took the largest stone near by and struck as hard as she could on the head. Capricorn turned towards Cavea as she turned to look up at him he smiled, simple but victorious as he wiped the blood from her lips. He held her close and she grasped him with all her remaining will. “I love you no matter what Capricorn”, she murmured through her hot, tear-stinged eyes. He put one hand under her chin and gently lifted her head, she looked at him and he wiped a fallen tear from her eye and said, “I will always love you Cavea.” He lifted her chin a little higher and he bent down to kiss her. Their kiss burned like a white fire, passionate and ever lasting, they kissed, surrounded by the mangled and blooded corpses of jealous ridden bird men. They embraced and they loved. Cavea climbed onto his back and held onto his human waist laying her head between his bare shoulder blades and felt the ocean spray wash over her as they ran along the beach. He faced the vast ocean just as the sun was at its golden peak in the sky. He turned his head to her and watched as her hair blazed like fire, her eyes like lit matches, she smiled, the most radiant and infectious smiles of them all. “You ready”, he asked.She replied, “As I’ll ever be.” He smiled bright and faced forward, Cavea leaned forward on his back pressing closer to him, and she wrapped her hand across his chest and laid her chin on his shoulder. He touched her hands and held onto them tight as he walked into the ever-descending ocean, with her on his back they rode on till you could see them no more.

Don't Touch



this is one of my first stories, bear with me and my mistakes because it is unedited. hopefully i will find time again to edit it but for the time being try to understand.


once upon a time there was a little robot who was given the gift of a heart in exchange to go on a quest to find the most beautiful flower of the land. as the little robot searched he came upon many beautiful flowers but none were the right one, as the journey grew longer and longer, his hope started dying and his heart turned colder and colder until there was a layer of ice surrounding it. so, the little robot feeling nothing but the cold from his heart kept wandering on. one day he came upon an unfamiliar valley filled with many flowers as he started shifting through like usual he came across one little flower that looked so delicate he was afraid to touch it..at this he carefully watched the flower for many days and nights just to observe its strength, as he did this the flower became more and more beautiful to him with each passing day. one day he decided to finally touch the flower, at this the flower turned to ash and died, the lonely little robot did not know what to do, he felt so guitly for killing the little flower that he was beside himself with a feeling he had never felt before. he could feel his heart giving off a loud thump in his chest and he could feel the ice around it breaking, and suddenly he knew exactly what he had to do. he ripped open his metal exterior until he finally reached the heart, then with wires haning everywhere and metal scraps thrown to the side he dug inside himself and took the heart out ever so carefully, making sure not to break it. when he had it placed firmaly in his hands he knew he had only a few seconds before all of his systems completly shut down, so with his quickest and swiftest of movements he placed the heart in the center of the ash and buried it with the dead flowers remains. at this the now heartless little robot fell over as all of his systems shut down. when the heart was buried in the ash, a new form started to grow, and out of it came a human girl. and inside of the girl beat the heart that the lonely, heartless, little robot gave up to give the flower life again. the girl put her hands over her heart and breathed in her first breath as she felt her heart beat. when she opened her eyes she looked around at her breath-taking suroundings, and then saw the little robot lying in a pile of ice. the girl gasped at the sight of her savior and knelt down next to him to see what had become of this little robot. when she touched the little robot his hard metal exterior turned soft and melted away to reveal skin. at this the girl was amazed as she watched all of the metal start to melt away to reveal a human boy. she was a t first joyous until she realized that this body, even though it was now human instead of robot was not breathing like she was, and unlike her the boy had a huge gash in his chest like the robot had. at this the girl put one hand over her beating heart and her other hand over the boy's and slowly his wound began to heal. when she finished healing his wound she slowly put the boy's head in her lap and gave him the sweetest kiss ever given, because with that kiss she gave a breath of life and the beat of a heart. at this the boy suddenly awoke, hazzily looking around him, but when his eyes reached her face all of his confusion melted away with his former self and he knew exactly where he was, who he was, and why he was there. they embraced each other for the first time together, even though they both knew that inside he was still the robot, and she was still the flower, they rejoiced in just having found each other. they lived for a short while, happily in each other's arms, living in each moment as if it was their very last with each other cause they knew one day that it would be. they grew closer and closer with each passing day, but the human boy that was once a robot knew that he could not be with his beautiful flower girl forever because even though his chest wound was healed and he was alive and breathing, he still had no heart, all he had was an empty beating in the hollow cave of his chest. so he knew that he had to leave her soon so she could live on a happy life, because he could not stay around her even though it made her happy at the time because he knew that she would be suffering later when she would realize what he already knew, and he knew he could not stand to see his love suffer. the next day he went off while his love was still in her slumber to make her a reminder so she would never forget the love and happiness that they had shared. he did this everyday for three weeks until the day had come when he had finally finished his work. as he was about to put it next to her sleeping head, it dawned on him that if he did this, she would never get over him and never be able to eventually move on with her life, and she would probably suffer even more having it. so even though he put all of his love into his gift, he knew he could never give it to her. with a mournful sigh he buried the gift where he first laid his heart in her ashes, and he walked away before she could see him go, before the sun arose, before either of them could say goodbye. he walked out of their valley, out of the land of the sun, out of the light of the moon, out of the sight of the stars, he kept walking until he reached the land of complete darkness, the land he was born from before he was gifted the heart. he knew that here he could not hurt anyone, especially his beloved flower that he raised from the ashes by sacrificing his own heart. the human girl arose from her sleep when the sun broke through the midnight sky and as she shook of the rest of the sleep that was covering her with a huge yawn, she reached around her expecting to feel her love beside her. when she did not find her love by touch, her eyes immediatly shot open to find him by sight. as she looked all around but still not seeing him her heart twisted uneasily inside her chest, she had to stop every couple of steps because she felt that her chest would implode. she had searched the whole valley three times over again and still had found no sight of him. tired from her search and weak from the pain her heart was giving her she collapsed on the ground near where the boy had buried his gift and as her conciousness was slipping away she heard the sweetest song her ears had ever tasted. she dragged her body towards the sound and when she finally felt the beat and melody of the sweet lullaby beneath her she started to dig with all of the strength she had left until three feet of dirt later she found the source. his gift, that he had put all of his love and energy into making. it was a music box. carved from the bark of a cherry blossom tree, and smelled of the loveliest fragrences in the world, and was designed with the ut-most care portraing on it the most beautiful flower the girl had ever seen. when the girl opened the music box the sweet song her ears had been yurning for received their sweet satisfaction as the melody played out into the sweetest of tunes that held a beautifully intricate story within itself. and in the middle of it all the girl gasped her last breath in amazement as she saw that her one love had given up the few things he had left, his breath to sufice the wonderful fragrences the girl had previously breathed in and his soul shaped into a boy and a girl holding each other in a bond that no one could break with ice and scraps of metal under their feet and petals twirling around them, the girl took all of this in with her last view of the world and breathed out a heavy sigh as she said," i love you my love, i will love you forever, from this life to the next, i give you your heart back as it has served its purpose within me and i give you the breath of eternity, for i will forever wait for your return." as soon as her breath left the boy, sitting all alone in the land of darkness, received such a pain that he was unsure of what was happening. the gash in his chest that was healed by his flower so long ago suddenly tore open again and when he looked in, he saw that his heart was back in place and his body felt indestructable and everlasting. then it came to him, her last words hit him like a tidal wave, and although he was not completly sure of what was going on he knew that he had to get back to her as fast as he could. he ran back into the sight of the stars, back into the light of the moon, back into the land of the sun but as much as he tried he could not remember where their valley lay. he wandered through the lands for what seemed like years but he could find nothing familiar to lead him back to his dying flower. in desperation and despair he called out for her from the time the sun rose to the time the sun set, but no answer came to him.he wandered in search for the love he left behind for three hundred years before he came across the cherry blossom tree he had carved his gift for her out of, he realized then and there that ven though he could hide and take away all of the things that could remind him of her but even though the years had passed and even though he had seen many other flowers beside her his memory of her never faded for a day, and he knew that it must have been the same with her also. thats when all of his heart, his strength, his spirit, his will broke in two and he realized how much he really missed her and how much he wanted to be with her. when this realiztion finally dawned upon him a gust of wind came and wrapped itself around him surrounding him with petals, and as the wind carried off in an untraveled direction, the boy followed. he followed for many miles until he came upon their valley, when he saw the valley a huge sadness swept over him, it was not as he remembered it three hundred years ago, the valley that he once knew that was covered in beautiful grasses and wonderfully grown trees and lovely fragrented flowers was now barren as if a huge fire had swept over their valley and had left everything in ashes. the only thing that stood out among the burnt remains was the musicbox. it sat in the center of the valley still playing its musical charm after all of these years, and as he slowly walked up to it he could still see his soul in the shape of the boy and the girl in the forever bond with ice and shards of metal below them and the petals around them. as he bent closer to see if the wonderful fragrence was still there he stumbled upon the dead body of his love, still as he remembered her three hundred years ago perfectly preserved in the ash. he knelt down and then scooped her up in his arms, and kissed her on the forehead, set her back down in the ashes and collapsed beside her because as she had foretold so many, amny years ago she had only given him enough breath eternal breath to come back to her, she could give no more. with the robot and the flower rejoined once more their valley flourished once again fueled by both of their breath, souls, and the one heart that had sustained them both for those many years. their spirits live together in a forever bind with ice and shards of metal below them and petals brought by the sweetlly fragrented wind inside the musicbox, listening forever to the sweet melody he had given his breath and soul for. their memory lives on in their valley forever, needing only their love for each other to sustain them..